Friday, February 1, 2008

"That Day..."

A period of waiting on the Lord always lends itself to lots of introspection. My thoughts lately have been on “that day”! “That day”, when we finally get to meet our baby. Even as I type that, feelings of excitement overwhelm me!

But as I pray for our birth mother, I have to recon template “that day”. What must it be like for her on “that day”? It must be the hardest day of her life! I don’t know that I have the selflessness in me to make a choice for my children that our birthmother will make. I’m pretty sure that I don’t.

I struggle with how I can look so forward to a day that will bring another human such pain. I have no idea how that day will look! I have no idea all of the emotions that we will go through.

So I ask the Lord…”How Lord? How can one day hold such joy and such pain?”

His response was amazing!

“I know that feeling child. I felt this way the day I watched as my son as he went to the cross of Calvary. Never have I felt such sadness and pain. Never have I felt such joy and excitement for the future!”

What a privilege when he lets us grasp a glimpse of who he is!!!


Jennifer Bacak said...

I love when God speaks!!! Wow! It gave me goosebumps when you told me that. You remind me to everyday feel what they are feeling. Love you friend! I love being on this journey with you, praying for you, your birthmom, your baby...I'm even having dreams about them! Funny hu?

Jenn said...

okay! i have my list of scriptures. thank you Jesus for telling shannan to tell me to do that.

i need your e-mail :) is mine

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